I'm not sure what's up with my work computer but I all of a sudden can't type in the body of my posts anymore. I will blame that as my reasoning for not updating our last TTC event.
Well time sure flies - I must have started those 2 little sentences a month ago and I'm just now getting back to it. Nothing exciting to report - of course another BFN but replace "fat" with a stronger word ending in UCKING!!! It's so hard to get all excited and be optimistic and say "pregnant until proven otherwise" but maybe I wasn't ready. We've taken so much time off and I've worked hard at trying to push my baby thoughts to the back corridor of my head (and heart) so I'm still bitter. I cried and did the normal - "what's wrong with us" "why can't we be parents" "when's it our turn" and all the other mind games we play when we are left with just 1 line on that stupid stick! Grrr!! So we took another break. For a few reasons and they seem silly in the grand scheme of things but I'm turning 40 in almost a week and I decided that I want to enjoy my birthday with some adult beverages. We were going to do a trip to Mexico but since we don't have passports (duh!) that was a no and then we thought Vegas but we are not big gamblers so that was a no too. Instead my super sweet "gay husband" is coming to town for 5 days and we are all going to have a blast with touristy stuff and fun events for his visit as well as my birthday. I will be exhausted for sure but this girl if nothing else...deserves an amazing 40th birthday. My poor girl will probably go insane during his visit since when we are together we act like 12 year old teenagers. LOL!!! Can't wait!!
So that's that!!! We have 2 vials currently being stored and the plan is to possibly go a round in October but we will see. I need to get my head right. Spice is so much better at staying positive and I need to adopt some of that. It's got to help right? Tick tock people, tick tock!!!!
Congrats on some recent BFPs and recent deliveries!! Take care!!
