Say Anything...

Silly side track to start this post from the usual TTC talk...Tristan Prettyman is AMAZING.  If you haven't heard her music...check it out!  Not to mention...ADORABLE! 

Here we are now on day 3 after our 2nd at home insem but our actual 16th try overall.  We had bought 4 vials in May and I have been charting my temp for 3 months.  This temp charting business is a little inconclusive and leaves a lot open to interpretation  but I figured "why not"!  It's interesting to see the temp fluctuate but mine is NOT cookie cutter clean that shows a for sure I've ovulated but generally I think I can tell when it happens but only AFTER.  By then it's too late some say on some websites and other sites say it's ok to insem after ovulation so who really knows.  Every body is different so I'm going with monitoring the CM and still using the OPKs.  On Tuesday I had a decent amount of CM and a very close positive on the OPK for a LH surge so we inseminated that night (8:30pm) with the frozen vial I picked up in a tank on the previous Friday.  We were going to insem 12 hours later with the 2nd vial but based on work schedules - we actually waited 28 hours in between.  I know that's quite a big difference but the CM was still present throughout Wednesday and there was an official positive LH surge.  We will see how this try goes.  Little Miss Flo if she decides to arrive - will be on Spice's bday OR better yet - if she doesn't arrive...that would be an awesome bday present for her!  Fingers crossed!! 

In regards to the actual insem...it was a similar shit show to the one we did last time except we didn't have a cathetar.  We used a 5ml syringe and had some moments of panic with trying to get every last drop out of the little vial.  For those that haven't done an at home...it doesn't come in a syringe at least for where I order from.  It comes in a tiny little vial that's about 2 inches (at most) tall with a screw top.  So if you get a too large of syringe - you won't be able to get the tip in the vial to get the goods out.  We did mostly ok but there was just a little bit left so we didn't want to waste so we did some magic to get the rest out.  It was quite comical!  I'm going to order some from Maiamidwifery.com (Thanks Kari!) for next time...well IF there's a next time (wink!).  We then set up a little arrangement for me on the floor so I could rest my feet on this couch/pillow arrangement.  I know there's some ladies out there that make this a romantic deal...but Spice and I are far too silly for that and it took everything in me to keep me from laughing as she stood there with a flashlight and one of my legs on her shoulder....ass over tea kettle people...humerous!!  Once we got the goods in place - I laid there propped up for an hour while she watched some TV and I listened to it since I was facing away from the TV.  Candy Crush anyone?  damn game!?!  Night two was much smoother but still had some giggles.  I'm now trying to keep my head busy but of course that's hard to do!  I'm working on landscaping and finally doing some flowers and shrubs outside so this project is getting 200% of my attention to keep it off other things.!

In sad news - one of our lesbian friends suffered a miscarriage this week.  It's heartwrenching and hard to hear her go through this.  She wasn't far along but there's a connection easily made after all the hardwork, wishing and prayers (and money!) we put into being moms.  I've been there so I'm trying to support as much as possible but we all heal differently.  Prayers for our friend J.

Till next time....