Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Heartbroken

So I'm writing this with a shake in my body and tears in my eyes.  The HCG only went to 233 from 28 in a week.  The doc said it should be in the 1000s by now.  I said but I started off so low - should it really be that high in a week and she said that at a bare minimum it should be at 240 so she is considering it a non-viable pregrancy and a miscarriage will be coming.  She can't say when.  I go back in a week and she said it could go up a little more or just stay flat and it will then start going down.  I can't believe this is it.  It's over.  THis was our absolute last chance and it's done.
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10 comments:

  1. Hope CoasterNovember 23, 2011 at 2:52 PM

    I am SO sorry.

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  2. IsaNovember 23, 2011 at 3:02 PM

    I'm so, so sorry to hear this terrible news. Lots of hugs to you and your wife. :(

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  3. Hope CoasterNovember 23, 2011 at 3:07 PM

    It wasn't supposed to be like this. You were supposed to get good news. My heart breaks for you. But I can't let go of my hope completely, 233 is so close to 240, how can they KNOW this pregnancy isn't viable?

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  4. AnonymousNovember 23, 2011 at 3:13 PM

    <3

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  5. LoralouNovember 23, 2011 at 5:13 PM

    I haven't given up hope yet, you are very close to her viable number... I am going to be sending such strong vibes to you!!

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  6. KNovember 23, 2011 at 7:39 PM

    I'm sorry, I just don't get it. That's a doubling time of under 55 hours. That's shorter than my successful singleton pregnancy (56-something) and not much longer than my twin pregnancy (52-something). The difference between 233 and 240 is nothing. How can she write you off at this point? Is there a next step other than waiting to miscarry? Can you get a second opinion? Not trying to make things more confusing for you, but this just doesn't seem to add up!

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  7. anofferingofloveNovember 23, 2011 at 7:46 PM

    I'm with K, above...

    Still, I wish the news had been better and absolutely reassuring. I'm so sorry.

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  8. finchandwrenNovember 23, 2011 at 7:50 PM

    We are so sorry :( I agree with K - if your HCG is still at 233 that is a good sign and just because it didn't get to your doctor's minimum of 240, then WTF?!? I know the doctor probably doesn't want to give you false hope but I haven't given up hope that your doctor is in fact wrong and that you still have a viable pregnancy.

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  9. moi + toi PHOTOGRAPHIENovember 26, 2011 at 7:19 AM

    keep holding on! dont give up. try to keep positive. its not over yet!

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  10. FinchandWrenDecember 3, 2011 at 11:40 PM

    You've been quiet -- keeping you girls in our thoughts....

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